relieved and hopeful

Dear Nick,

After talking to you (and your mom) I broke down into a mess of hysterics. I was crying out of happiness that I heard your voice, saddness that I couldn't be there, and frustration that there's nothing I can do from 1500 miles away. But I was laughing, too, because I was so full of joy to hear your usualy, "hey, what's up?" and "I'll call you later, tomorrow." How typical, how wonderful, how little and small and perfect and beautiful. And the rest of my day has been better, because I got to talk to you, my friend. The emptiness and saddness still lives in my core, but the hope is growing, and the love is burning.

I miss you. Goodnight, my friend.

Love,
Holly