Oh Nick,

I'm not myself. I'm sitting here, at my computer, finishing a bottle of wine. You never knew me to drink. And today I got my hood re-pierced in a spur-of-the-moment act of stupidity and waste of $90. And I didn't eat ANY veggies today, just lots of carbs and fats. And yesterday? Oh damn. Yesterday I went stress shopping and bought a new Kate Spade bag. Shit, yo.

I can't do this. I can't resort back to old habits. I hate this. Oh my God, Nick, make me stop... I don't know how to live without knowing that you are alive...

love,
Drunk Holly