Dear Nick,

I miss you so much. Today I met my students and their parents. I think it’s going to be a great group. I felt your presence with me and supporting me and enveloping me. I just felt so good all day, like my life was moving forward in a positive direction; it just felt so right. Don’t get me wrong, I was scared out of my mind. But I had (and have) full faith that everything will come together.

I felt you so strongly. When my coworker from the toystore came in with her husband and daughter, I wanted to grab your picture off my desk. “This is him!” I wanted to say. “This is my Tony!” Actually, I wanted to show it to everyone who walked in the door. I wanted them to see your goofy smile, to know that our class has a guardian angel.

The minute I left the school, I felt sad again. I felt alone and empty.

I came home and quickly fell asleep. Kat, the 3rd grade teacher and my closest friend here, called me to see if I wanted to get some dinner. I was confused and disoriented, thinking that it was Tuesday already and that I was late for school! On the drive there, I talked to both Lin and Emily. We caught up on life and love and work. And then Kat and I had a light dinner while hashing out the day and our lives. God, it’s good to have such great friends. I have friends in Arizona, Washington, St. Louis, Ohio, Boston, NYC, Rhode Island, and heaven.

I know it goes without saying, but watch over me tomorrow, okay? I’m really nervous. And I miss you so much.


Love,
Holly